Monday, June 29, 2015

things you probably didn't know about me.


My left rib cage is slightly deformed.
I was born 3 weeks early:) you're welcome, Mommy.
I like window shopping in office supply stores
The first time I submitted mission papers, I was turned down for medical reasons. I can't imagine what my life would be like if I hadn't been able to serve!
Sharks are my favorite animal! Especially hammerheads:)
I also really really like flamingos and pandas and elephants.
I made a girl cry in a debate round when I was 15 and have since been known among the debate team as "the girl who makes girls cry"
I was in the choir for the General Young Women's Broadcast in March 2010
Dana Point is probably my most favorite place in the whole world!
I've always had an on/off relationship with milk, and it's been "off" since junior year of high school.
My trainer introduced me to soy and almond milk. She's the best:)
I prefer talk radio to other radio stations (105.7)
My declared major was neuroscience when I applied to BYU...Lol:)
I've read the Book of Mormon 3.5 times in Spanish
I have never turned down Sunny D
I'm a complete Daddy's girl, but I tell Mom more stuff;)
Also my Dad once told me that I'm his favorite daughter so that's neat...
I considered applying to Yale but backed out last minute
I served as a county delegate for the Utah County Republican Party
One of my nicknames is "Maggie"
I've seen every episode of That's So Raven except one!
There's a 99% chance that my ACT score was equal to or higher than yours;)
I basically eat rice with every meal.
I'm kind of jealous of all the attention my niece gets...;)
Cinnamon is my favorite flavor of gum, mouth wash, toothpaste, candy, etc.
I love public speaking!
I'm the only person in my family with blue eyes
I've read "The Prince" by Machiavelli three times so watch out!
My cousin passed away on my 4th birthday and I feel a special love for him and his family because of it.
I went to five different elementary schools
My dream car is a Ford Ranger
I still sleep with a stuffed animal...Bacca, the sheep:) thanks Clarissa.
I keep a football in the back of my car just in case.
I only wear blue, gray, black, white, and occasionally green. You will never catch me in pink, orange, yellow, or red.
Some people on my mission called me "Hermana Crandallucha"
I always wear my hair down because I don't like my ears
My car has broken down 5 times since coming home from my mission...nothing stresses me out like car stress.
I love cemeteries! They are the perfect place to go on a walk or run.
When I was in high school, my hair reached longer than my hips.
I'm quarter Asian/Pacific Islander...I love Polynesian dance:)

Thursday, June 18, 2015

"better than I deserve"

Harrisonburg, Virginia
Over the past ten weeks, since returning home from my full-time mission, I have prayed and prayed that God would put good things in my life. I've had a very difficult time adjusting to "normal life," but I feel so powerfully that God has answered my prayers in astounding ways. I feel to confess that His plan is always so much better than mine. He has blessed me with two great jobs, a loving family, good health, and wonderful friends. As much as I miss my mission, I feel overwhelmed at all of the blessings that have come because of my simple offering. I know that God lives, loves us, and is desirous to grant us with things much better than we deserve.

Wednesday, June 10, 2015

LIBRE SOY.

And I'm not even talking about that one song from Frozen in Spanish that Elsa sings when she runs away into mountains which movie I finally saw a few weeks ago after coming home from my mission even though I already knew all of the words because Hermana Sprunt had the album in Spanish and we occasionally listened to it while driving through Richmond last Fall. (But I don't know the words in English yet.)

No, I'm talking about ME being FREE.

Letting it go. (Without all that gross snow stuff.)

Late Friday night I was driving home to Lehi after work while listening to a song about the Savior. And it. hit. me. I am free. Because of the perfect atonement of Jesus Christ, I am free. 

I reflected on all of my past insecurities and anxieties that held me bound for years--all of which the atonement has so mercifully removed from my life. Like, it doesn't even hurt anymore. I feel so pleased with the person I've become and the person I've becoming! I know the atonement is real because I've felt it change me.


Sunday, June 7, 2015

autoestima

I came to the most liberating and annoying realization while on my mission:

That self-esteem is what I think of myself.

How different would your life be if you believed all of the good things people said about you?

Here's a little excerpt from a General Conference address given by Elder Klebingat last October:

"Take responsibility for your own spiritual well-being. Stop blaming others or your circumstances, stop justifying, and stop making excuses... Accept that you are “free according to the flesh” and “free to choose liberty and eternal life” (2 Nephi 2:27). The Lord knows your circumstances perfectly, but He also knows perfectly well whether you simply choose not to fully live the gospel. If that is the case, be honest enough to admit it, and strive to be perfect within your own sphere of circumstances. Spiritual confidence increases when you take responsibility for your own spiritual well-being by applying the Atonement of Jesus Christ daily."

I think the same idea applies to not just spiritual confidence, but every other type of confidence as well. We're solely responsible for how we feel about ourselves. Other people can say nice or mean things, but we choose what we will believe. I know that as we apply the Atonement of Jesus Christ, we can come to a clearer understanding of who we truly are and who we are capable of becoming.